First loaves I’ve made since my husband passed away suddenly in early December. I’ve been cooking and baking since I was young, and he was my biggest supporter. I loved bringing him a fresh piece of sourdough slathered in butter after making new loaves. He told me all the time he was in awe of how quickly I picked up making sourdough; this was a relatively new hobby I started last September, after I decided to make my own starter. His favorite line was “I’d pay for that in a restaurant,” which always made me feel so proud. They’re not perfect, but this was cathartic. These loaves are for you, Hubs. I miss you.
by hemiscounted_themen
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Sorry to hear about your deep loss. I also baked my way through grief a few years ago when my mother passed away. She loved sourdough, and I would always buy her a loaf in the city when I went to visit. Unfortunately, I only started baking after she had passed, but I always thought – and still do – about how she might have enjoyed my home-baked bread.
Gorgeous loaves. So sorry for your loss. This is such a wonderful way to connect with him.
Here I am crying in a sourdough sub but my deepest condolences to you words can never truly express the loss. I hope you have friends close to lean on ❤️
The loaves look delicious! Keep it up 💜
Please come join us in r/widowers. It’s been the most supportive place for me since my spouse passed in December of 2023. I’m sorry for what you are going through.
<<Hugs>> A lovely memory to hold on to in sadness. My thoughts are with you and hope the bread gives you small moments of happiness 🩷
Sorry to hear you going through one of my biggest fears! Finding a great partner is bittersweet because everything has to end… I hope you will find peace sooner rather than later. You’re so stoic to pick up baking that fast, one of the things that remind you of him.
Why is there onions in a sourdough bread?
Every time i cook/bake, it reminds me of my god mother. She’s the one who encouraged me to do well in the kitchen.
So sorry for your loss. He sounds like a gem, praying that you find comfort.
I believe our sourdough takes in whatever emotions we are feeling when we bake them. These are beautiful loaves, I see a lot of love went into these. I am so, so sorry for your loss.
For me, baking is a love language. Something to make with my hands but speaks to how much I care for someone.
I think of your loaves as a way you can continue to talk to your husband. So sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry for your loss, and I know that words cannot express how deeply you must be grieving. You do make a mean sourdough boule though.
I am so sorry for your loss. I am glad that you have found an outlet as comforting as baking. Welcome to our sub and our community. If you have any questions the brilliant bakers here are sure to help!
I’m so sorry. Sending love from an internet stranger ❤️
I’m so sorry. Bread is love.
Sending hugs and love from a fellow sourdough baker. I can’t imagine the pain you are feeling, but I hope that baking serves as a way for you to feel your husband’s presence.
So sorry for your loss. I lost my husband back in 2012 during December as well. I was 38 at the time, I struggled so badly that I stopped cooking, baking any of his favorite things. I even stopped drinking coffee. It is so wonderful that you’ve been able to pour your grief into this outlet that you clearly are so great at. Sending condolences and peace your way.
Sending love to your aching heart. Here’s to hubs, a cheers with extra butter. Your loaves are lovely! Wishing you peace and rest in the coming year.
So sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story of baking through grief💕 Food can be an expression of Love and Care. I love that he was so proud of you and you enjoyed bringing him that fresh buttered slice ! Your loaves look delicious!