Hi all, I lost my perfect, beautiful baby boy 5 years ago today when he was unexpectedly stillborn just before his due date as a result of an umbilical cord accident.

I am a total beginner hobby baker and I bake a cake on his birthday each year, as a way to honor him and also bring a little sweetness to his sisters on an otherwise very sad day. I made this same post last year, and thought I’d update it with this year’s cake.

I like to do a silhouette cake (with real silhouettes of his sisters and an imagined one of him). Last year (2024) I was working with limited time and materials after hurricane Helene impacted my area a bit.

This year’s cake was a 6” 3 layer Preppy Baker’s chocolate cake with Sugar Geek American Buttercream. I hand sewed the hot air balloon using scraps I’ve been collecting to make a quilt (with cloth from my son’s baby clothes as well).

I’ll also share the past years’ cakes. I couldn’t bring myself to make a cake on his first birthday, so only four to share, even though this is his 5th birthday. Thinking of all the parents out there whose little ones should be here. 💙💙

by kittyhawk3115

40 Comments

  1. Fireflybat

    They’re beautiful and such a lovely way to honor him. Sending you love OP 🩵

  2. celinebg

    this is beautiful, just so gorgeous. thank you for sharing with us, sending lots and lots of love over to you 💙💙💙

  3. TragicaDeSpell

    What a lovely tribute. I am so sorry for your family’s loss.

  4. UsedAd7162

    These are amazing, and such a beautiful tribute. I am so, so incredibly sorry for your loss. He is looking down and very proud of his mama. 🙏🏼🩵

  5. cloomis

    This has me in tears. You never forget the ones you lose. I’m so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful way to keep his memory alive.

  6. I am so so sorry for your loss. This tradition is a meaningful tribute to you both, and your cakes are stunningly beautiful.

    Sending you a virtual hug from an internet stranger. 💕

  7. hanimal16

    Awww I’m sorry. I can truly empathise. Your cakes are lovely ♥️

  8. tomandshell

    Thank you for sharing—this is a beautiful tribute.

  9. Logical-Slice-9435

    Beautiful cakes. I’m sorry for your loss and I wish you peace and comfort in these difficult times.

  10. midnightmeatloaf

    Lovely tribute. Thanks for sharing.

  11. RhubarbJam1

    Oh goodness, OP, this made me cry. I’m so sorry for your loss, what beautiful remembrances you’ve made for him.

  12. kristypie

    I remember your post from last year. Thank you for sharing this sweet tribute to your precious boy. ♥️

  13. FelonyMelanieSmooter

    What a sweet way to honor your son! Sending you a virtual hug! 🩵

  14. juniorjunior29

    How beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

  15. FairyGodmothersUnion

    The first one made me cry. My deepest sympathies on the loss of your son. The cakes are beautiful.

  16. 60PersonDanceCrew

    As a fellow parent of a stillborn baby, I’m sorry you had to join this club. I think you have found a really beautiful way to honor your baby and I hope you are proud of that! 💝

  17. tgatigger

    They are all so beautiful, and I can see the love you have for your little boy expressed through your baking. I hope the process gives you some peace every year. Be well 💙

  18. bookishbynature

    This is so beautiful. What a thoughtful remembrance that I’m sure brings comfort to your family.

    So sorry for your loss. This must have been so painful. Beautiful work!!

  19. AgileMastodon0909

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Your birthday cakes are beautiful!

  20. belle_epoxy

    The boy in the balloon made me cry. What a beautiful image. I am sorry for your loss, and I hope you keep sharing your cakes with us.

  21. Threedogs_nm

    Your cakes are so beautiful. Those together with your story of your son brings tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing your story and the way you honor him. 💙

  22. CommandoTurkey

    As soon as I saw this title I knew I would recognize the post. I’m thinking of you, your boy, and the love in these beautiful cakes.

  23. Spaghetti4wifey

    Sending you my deepest sympathy, I hope you are doing well. These are beautiful cakes and I’m certain he feels honored by them 🙂

  24. SirTerrisTheTalible

    All the props were utilized well, but I especially like the balloon. It looks very uplifting. I’m sorry I couldn’t help it. I really do like the balloon the best.

  25. Monica_C18

    🤍🎈✨ Happy heavenly birthday to your son! Holding you close in my heart today *(my angel’s birthday is Dec 1st)*.

    Sending you my brightest light and warmest hugs 💖

  26. PotsMomma84

    These are absolutely stunning. Sending you love 🩵

  27. Remarkable_Jelly9344

    What a beautiful tribute ♥️
    my heart goes out to you and your family

  28. RedditOO77

    What a beautiful way to remember and celebrate your son and create memories.

  29. twd_throwaway

    These are such beautiful tributes to your little guy. I think this is such a thoughtful and loving way to express your feelings on his birthday. There is something so special about things that are made with a lot of time and care. I am sending all of the love and peace that I can. And, most of all, happy birthday to your son. ❤️🫂

  30. spinal_95

    Him in the hot air balloon is so precious🥹 he’s blowing out his candles and enjoying your cake mama

  31. Uhlexuhhhh

    Sending you and your girls a hug. Do you plan on posting the quilt?

  32. lastminutealways

    I remember your post from last year. What a beautiful tribute to your son. All the love to you and your family. 🩵