Hi all, I lost my perfect, beautiful baby boy 5 years ago today when he was unexpectedly stillborn just before his due date as a result of an umbilical cord accident.

I am a total beginner hobby baker and I bake a cake on his birthday each year, as a way to honor him and also bring a little sweetness to his sisters on an otherwise very sad day. I made this same post last year, and thought I’d update it with this year’s cake.

I like to do a silhouette cake (with real silhouettes of his sisters and an imagined one of him). Last year (2024) I was working with limited time and materials after hurricane Helene impacted my area a bit.

This year’s cake was a 6” 3 layer Preppy Baker’s chocolate cake with Sugar Geek American Buttercream. I hand sewed the hot air balloon using scraps I’ve been collecting to make a quilt (with cloth from my son’s baby clothes as well).

I’ll also share the past years’ cakes. I couldn’t bring myself to make a cake on his first birthday, so only four to share, even though this is his 5th birthday. Thinking of all the parents out there whose little ones should be here. 💙💙

by kittyhawk3115

22 Comments

  1. seapeabby

    these are beautiful, sending you hugs ❤️

  2. OurSaviorSilverthorn

    I really love the silhouette style! I’ve lost 4 in varying ways (I have no living children), and one grieved mama to another, this is a beautiful way to honor your son.

    One year on my due date, I took $40 to the local small business bakery and told her to put it toward the next baby shower cake that came in. I ended up paying for a rainbow baby shower cake!

  3. hulalabright

    Absolutely beautiful. I have tears in my eyes at the hot air balloon. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  4. E0H1PPU5

    This is a beautiful and loving tribute OP. I remember your cake from last year. I hope you and your family are well.

  5. Cultural-Ambition449

    What a beautiful way to remember your boy 💜

  6. Bridgetd73

    I remember your post from last year❤️Big hugs to you xox -from a fellow grieving mom

  7. niceabear

    These are beautiful. You’ve done a wonderful job and I am glad you are using your creativity as an outlet to give tribute to your beautiful
    Boy. ❤️

  8. EarthToTee

    I remembered your post from last year, but didn’t realize it’s been a year already. I saw these and immediately checked the profile to make sure you were OP & your pics hadn’t been stolen, and found my own upvote on your 2024 posts. 💙 I can’t believe it’s been a year!

    Look how brave you’re being with your cakes! They’re such lovely tributes to your boy. Happy 5th birthday, sweet pea, and all the love to you, Mama. 🫂

  9. marylou74

    These are beautiful! I lost my daughter 5 years ago as well, she should have also been 5. Every year I make her a cake as well, I try to find something she would want, this year it was a Funfetti cake because I figured that’s probably what a 5 year old wants. I love the butterfly cake. Such a beautiful way to honor him. Sending love for his birthday.

  10. Ok-Fee1566

    They are beautiful. Such a sweet way to remember him.

  11. snarkysharky12

    Awe so beautiful. A sweet coincidence but it happened to be hot air balloon festival this weekend 🫶🏼

  12. berkeleyteacher

    these took my breath away. what a beautiful tradition to honor your babe, and a really sweet way to keep his memory alive for his sisters. xo

  13. ClassyUpTheAssy

    Those are beautiful wow 😮 💙🩵💙

  14. Boinkyboink31

    This is beautiful. Sending you so much love and healing.

  15. w3m1j0z1

    I’m so sorry for your loss. What a perfectly sweet way for your family to honor his memory. ❤️‍🩹☮️

  16. Dontfeedthebears

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Everyone grieves differently, but I think it’s beautiful to keep his memory alive in this way.

  17. Jersey_Gal47c

    These cakes are beautiful tributes to your son. Thank you for sharing them and continuing the tradition 🫂🤍

  18. Diligent_Local_2397

    Im so deeply sorry for your loss. I guess I am crying with cakes now 🥺 you show the love you hold for him with this art 🫶

  19. This is beautiful-what a lovely tribute ❤️ and I’m so sorry for your loss.