Also, there are two book festivals coming up. I put links to those on here. I am excited to check both out.
https://www.amazon.com/stores/Nuun/page/D227E1A3-4C18-497C-8219-C0576ABC3CED?ref_=ast_bln
https://www.keyschool.org/community/annapolis-book-festival/festivalevents
https://www.frightreads.com/
Also, these are the recipes I have for Thursday. Which is the day my mom and I cook. Normally, she does it alone. haha But I have one day. These are from a long list. I picked six from the list last week also. Not sure about the salmon things. We were going to make them last week but I didn’t feel like having fish. Though, I never feel like having fish. haha
https://www.halfbakedharvest.com/chicken-katsu-bowls/
https://carlsbadcravings.com/best-baked-pork-tenderloin/
https://carlsbadcravings.com/chicken-florentine/
https://carlsbadcravings.com/mojo-cuban-roast-pork-lechon-asado/
https://diethood.com/baked-crack-chicken-breasts/
We switch things to make these low in carbs and salt.
how guys how do you not feel good man
even when I stand up it’s like I’m just
like shaky you know I don’t feel
good man but so today I got to I got to
start eating lunch at like 2 o’clock and
um I
um I just
um my mom was seeing my brother and
sister-in-law she was at their house
watching my niece and nephew my
sister-in-law got a job somewhere and I
am it was like 5:30 I I don’t know I
just put me in a bad mood I guess but we
went out so we left at like 5 50 but
went to BJ so that’s what I did today
but doesn’t bother me normally I just
don’t feel good man I feel like fle
crapping
anyway and um I made this by the way
earlier I had a espresso coffee and then
I had some Dunkin Donuts decf in my
coffee pot so made that and then this
this is caffeinated IHOP with some um
almond milk it’s some I don’t like
putting usually milk in it but I did CU
I just made a um cup of it and I don’t
put sugar in
good man if I smell what taste like to
me know so anyway it just it kind of
bothered me you know
cuz sometime I mean I’ve been sitting
here all
day and it just um I don’t know why I
bother me man but I’m it was stupid of
me I got kind of mad about it and I said
um I said I love to see a shrink and she
said there probably tell you get a job
and I said I don’t care see I think
that’s one of the psychological things
for some reason I don’t think she wants
her to see shrink probably because I
told her I remember my grandfather
molesting me and she’s a word I want to
tell to shrink which I
would but I said it’s the truth I said
if they told me to get a job I would get
a job they told me I couldn’t get Social
Security Disability anymore well see the
government gives me Social Security
Disability so I’m disabled and that’s
great but they don’t own me you know I
could care less man about any of this
stuff I love this stuff but like a year
ago it just sto really meaning anything
to me if these are just things you know
what do I care man
seriously but um so
that and um I text her a bunch of stuff
but I didn’t send it I sent it to myself
I said
um I would tell shrink I’m interested in
writing and voice acting I’m writing
right now the voice acting thing is
expensive as I’m trying to figure
out I mean I could pay for it all but
that’s a lot of money to get out of my
account you know almost eight grand who
wants to take that much money on their
account and I can’t really get um credit
cards because they look at it as if I
have no income which I do I’m guaranteed
to get money I probably more guarantee
then people have a regular job you know
but man I told her earlier says I don’t
feel good I’m proba being a dick
but I don’t care man if I stopped
getting that money out wouldn’t mean
anything to me you know oh well so B
just like before I wented to go on a
cruise and she said they might tell you
might stop your Social Security I said
oh well just because I get money from
Social Security Disability isn’t because
I chose to be disabled you know it’s
because somebody killed me man
I’m almost blind I have no smell you
know so a hole in my skull little one
that’s why I get it you know so it’s
fascinating what some people think and
um then she said um I don’t know why
I’ve been trying I thought that’s an
interesting thing to say what is she try
you know me trying to make me happy I
mean I’m happy just sometimes things
annoy me you know she says stuff like
that and um and I told her my
sister-in-law got a job that was going
to happen she be there more and more and
she said she wouldn’t it’s one of those
things you know
see the way I think maybe
psychologically I don’t know man
but when I hear something I don’t think
about it not even for a second just
instantly once I hear something in my
mind is the outcome it’s weird right I’m
often right about things I have that um
feeling about but is really man and um
yesterday she’s up there talking to my
grandmother on the phone anyway
yesterday I was um let meang let me stop
this
once I stopped that cuz if I do it too
long I won’t record having in trouble
with my Mac earlier too man I’m burning
discs I try to burn a third Blu-ray and
it said something was full and it said
things were running and I tried to close
things the only thing I did I couldn’t
even delete I tried to delete St from my
computer wouldn’t let me so I um
restarted my M turned it off and then
went up at turn it back on and work now
see if I can put on a desk my mom made
good burgers yesterday man she made an
egg p on today was good and a Sal I
wasn’t really that hungry you know if
I’m going back and forth I’m sorry but
I’m just I’m F some kind of
full
anyway last night man I watched a show
called kill or be killed I think it was
from oxygen or something and this
kid it was him and his father and he had
a stepmother and a step brother and one
day he called the police he had shot his
father three times his father was dead
but as it turns out his father had
psychologically abused him for years and
he didn’t go to school his father never
made him go to school no homeschooling
nothing the thing that his father show
was to homeschool was some kind of
completely other thing so the kid his
stepmother had to teach him the um
capital letters and stuff when he was 10
years old man so his father he said one
day his father was coming at him he
feared his life so he shot him and he
was sent the pr
but then after his lawyer lawyer found
out what his father did something
happened and there was a new attorney or
something or some kind of guy government
guy so what about um something so I
can’t just called
um something anyway he got he got out of
prison no prison time he got time served
and he’s out of prison which is
interesting they said he has to go to
school and do something else but I would
think I mean good for him but he did
kill somebody and I would think that
poor guy is going to be psych
psychologically for the rest of
his life you
know and I remembered something and I
might have said this before a long time
ago man when I was a kid maybe I don’t
think I was 8 years old yet man maybe
seven I could have been eight I don’t
know I’ll just say from 700 to 10: my
dad it was during the day maybe the
morning he was one of his one of his um
attack modes you know he was hitting us
all and my mom was crying and my brother
was C my mom wouldn’t cry she was trying
to be strong my brother was crying and I
was so afraid man and um one of our
neighbors heard him yelling called the
cops and I don’t know if the cops were
there or not but I can see it I was
standing in the hallway without either a
wooden or a metal baseball bat in my
hand I was like you know what I mean
like that and if he would have um if he
would have been there still and if he
would have been hitting my mom man and I
and I would have thought he I would have
thought he was going to hurt her if he
was crying I’m would have killed him you
know and I don’t know man what would
have happened would my life have been
completely because of him and I
think about that man I don’t know I
don’t know what would happened with that
but I can see it man in my mind I was so
mad about that I was so upset one of
those things where you snap you know but
then I never did that again man and
um that’s so I thought about that it
made me think and I’m like wow
man would have thought about that I can
just see you know I was
like I was just like that man and now
the outcome more than likely he was like
6’5 or something and he was muscular cuz
he worked as a welder so I would
probably swung the bat he probably
called and probably would killed us all
man and I see that’s why you don’t use
violence as a thing
but that was the only
time and all the years of being abused
man that I ever that I ever
mhm that I that I ever did anything like
that you know and it’s just it’s weird
man I
just I don’t know man I just um anybody
that’s Abus man tell somebody I’m
telling you I didn’t tell anybody cuz I
thought it was normal but it’s not
normal man no one should ever put their
hands on you man if anybody does or if
they ever have tell somebody like me
talking to right now to you guys want
here man it’s I told Mom earlier that I
was talking to the Taylor SC out she
said he put that on YouTube I said it is
so frame to me I have no one else to
talk to other than my family really you
guys man you’re my internet family you
know and it’s it’s it’s amazing to me
it’s releasing a part of me that’s been
clogged in my mind you know and
um that’s what I thought about man so if
I get if I’m scattered I’m sorry man but
um also I found something earlier I
thought I would F here
EXC quick
my mom said you’re never a waste because
I
wrote I’m not going to write I don’t
want to say what I wrote to
her that would be kind of wrong you know
what have to a shrink man would I tell a
shrink what I talk to her about it would
that be kind of private I don’t
know let me see here man I got
um that’s not what I wanted to do okay
there’s something called nuu n daily
Wellness hydration
electrolytes and then there’s um there’s
blueberry
Blackberry I don’t know this flavor is
anyway I found those I thought that’s
interesting to put on here and also if
you guys live in Maryland there’s
something a place called The Key School
it’s an Annapolis Book Festival and I
thought and it happens on the um
Saturday April 24th from 10:00 a.m. till
400 p.m. and
um I have the website here so you guys
can check it out man it has a bunch of
stuff sip around the world tea party I
don’t know what it means you know
Jonathan M something it’s like different
authors I
guess I don’t really know what they
do but um tickets how want your tickets
man I don’t know they have panels all
kind of cool stuff man so if you like
writing or books and there’s also it
says there’s um huge Used Book Sales so
you guys like buying books activities
and entertainment food truck and
concessions and amazing themed Raffles
so I mean it could be a fun thing you
know for families and and stuff man to
go and um a lot of fun let’s see raffle
baskets they have here each year key
school’s parent Association curates
grade level baskets featuring a generous
selection of themed items to raffle off
and support of the Festival tickets can
be purchased online or in person on the
day of the
festival so I don’t know let’s
see uh Boatyard Bar and Grill $50
so I guess it shows you all kind of
stuff man so I’ll send this put this on
here you guys check it out man and I’m
going to another Book Festival
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and next month on the 25th it’s at
Marley mall it’s the kagin um thing and
I think that’ll be fun and
um so I went the one before and I loved
it man as I said before it’s the first
time I ever felt connected to people
that Book Festival you
know I’m still back on here man I feel
was sick after eight man I don’t know
man I don’t want to have cold or
something so I don’t know anyway I think
that’s all I have to talk about man and
um let’s
see I don’t know if I put down how many
calories I burn today oh here’s the
other Book Festival May I put this one
here too fright reads.com it is on
um May 25th 12 to 7 p.m. so I’ll put
that on here as well and that was fun
last year man the guy from Fright reads
he used to um
let’s see I think he used to play with
somebody from um Peter Paul Mary he
plays guitar I think I don’t know much
about him but I know he did something
before he was a a musician because
sometime I think he plays at the um he
played the his store I think he used to
let other artists come and play too that
was fun I love to go play guitar with
him you know 20 man I um thank you guys
for existing and for letting me put
videos on here and for those that
responding for those don’t man it means
the same to me and uh love you guys
man really